My baby shot me down.

-->> Three hundred and sixty nine fucking days I've
had this thing, and for a good 50 days or so I've been
as good as dead to you all. My deepest apologies, I
never thought I'd conform to the dreaded myspace,
who's got everyone roaring and killing themselves to be
on celebs' top eights. Get real. I've missed the actual
updating from time to time. Though that shows no justice
for you and I, I've not taken advantage of it for just about ever.

Here I am sitting in my mess of a room, the techno
'Audio bullys' version of 'Shot me down' blasting my
headphones, due to my father ripping my speakers out
of the computer and throwing them. Sad really, listening
to all my good music attatched to the computer.

I really do need more blank CD's.

Everything has been alright.. Boy from CVS asked
me out, I agreed just to hang out, and now hes calling
every 5 minutes asking me why I'm ignoring him. I hung
out with him once, and he wont stop calling. Hes truly not
my type, and I'm not one to bash sweet guys but my 
goodness it gets annoying listening to him act like he's
never had an erection and my eyes are the best he's
ever seen. Aside from stalkers I've only ever seen 3 times
in my life asking me why I 'hate him' I've got nothing new
to enlighten you with. I'm trying to think of anything new
or interesting, but theres really nothing.

I desperately need to do a few superficial things
before I kill myself, that including dying my hair
and actually getting real highlights, getting my nails
filled, going tanning, and getting a pedicure.

Its been too long.

Summers coming, I'm excited- and thats another thing,
I need to go shopping before I cry. BLEH.

I've got nothing to say.

Miss me?
I missed you all.

I miss you so bad..

Alright, among all the other things-
Hello, my lovely, beautiful, and faithful readers.

Second, I must say that I'd rather have you all
talk to me on AIM, than to have you feel I'm
ignoring any of you on here. So feel very free:

xx blacklace. IM me.

This may or may not turn out to be a big update,
as I sit here with my starbucks in my cold room,
with lovely Franz Ferdinand on the playlist...

To let you all know, I've picked myself up in school.
My music theory teacher has called home and told
my mother what an improvement I've made, but
otherwise, the other classes are moving on up.

I went to jersey this thursday, stayed overnight-
I just want to say how truly unpleasurable it can
be to get a lot of attention. I felt dirty this weekend,
violated. The men in Jersey are on a true dryspell,
because I was stared at, stalked(quite literally, by
a bellhop in the hotel lobby.), and hit on, all on more
than one occasion. A crazy feeling, truly- I felt dirty.
I didnt wear anything out there, and I don't want to
sound conceited- I truly didn't think I was so...
intrigueing? Maybe that's the word? I have a strong
aura, so I attract attention everywhere, and I've
been told I look exotic, but really- what the hell?

So, after being asked to go to mens hotel rooms, getting
plenty licked lips and 'how you doing's, I'm regaining my
sanity and trying to get back into the flow at home. The
ocean was beautiful... and I'll update with pictures when
I have them saved.

Otherwise, life has been dry in general, there have been
no exciting happenings since I've last talked to you.

You all should know how to reach me by now,
I'm on AIM more than I am myspace:

xx blacklace. IM me pleaseee.

But, I'm on myspace more than I am xanga. (sorry)

www.myspace.com/xblacklace

Take care, and tell me how all of you are doing!
I miss you guys, get ahold of me.

<3

I watched you change...

So I realize I dissapeared forever.
But I am still alive.

Suprisingly, not much has gone on.

I'm still single.
I'm grounded.
I've got internet on the weekends only now.
I'm partying this weekend, if everything goes to plan.
You can call me, if you want.
610.573.7682
I'm listening to Eminem. lol
Jay might pick me up today around 5.
No, hes not my boyfriend.

I miss you guys, a lot-
and I'm really sorry I fucked up-
If I could I'd be on here all the time-
but I only have the computer on the
weekends now, so bare with me- and
call if you'd like. <3

My hearts beating faster.

-->> Alright, first things first. I'm single again. Haha...
Here's why I'm single:

* Just remind me not to date guys my age.
* When you make plans with me? Remember them.
* I'm just too damn picky.
* I move too fast. (sexually)
* I look at relationships like they're not going to last. Ever.
* I'm more independant than I thought.
* I'm a no guy-bullshit kinda deal, I know them too
   well, I hang out with them too often and I know their
   tricks and shit too well to let myself fall into them. Ugh.

Okay, that's that. On another note?

I went to JESSI MARIE'S house!

I adore this girl, shes amazing and you all should be jealous.
I first got there, and what do we do? We go to WAL*MART! haha.
So, this was interesting. I was very boycrazy, just lately I've been
terrible. ANYWAY. I shopped, cos I had about 50 dollars on hand.
I got a gorgeous blazer that I fell in love with, a black tunic tee and
a G-STRING. yeah, thats right. Haha. So, we went home and I take
out the G-string and play with it a while, and all of a sudden jessi
takes it and puts it on over her SUPER SEXY RED SURFER SHORTS.


OMG ITS SO HAWT. haha. Love my panties, right? =P

So after laughing a bit about that, and Jessi putting my
g-string on her boobs...

ahahaha.

We decided it was just about time we went into her hottub.
I was excited. =D

So, we got into our bathing suits and made our way out to
the hawttub and I brought my cell phone <3 haha- We
decided to call every boy I've ever known while we were
in the hottub. Haha.. Got a few interesting responses from
them. Heres a few quotes.

Me- My lower half of my body is hot, but the upper half is
cold.
Guy- Well I'm sure you're whole body is hot.

Me- Yeah so my friend and I are in a hottub.
Guy- Ooo, are you guys gonna get a little groovy?

Haha, so it was fun- we fucked around a bit and went back
to her room, talked, and watched tv- had a few more interesting
phone conversations- and then passed out, like omg.

Haha, went home at noon.

IT WAS AMAZING, AND I LOVE MY JESSI MARIE.
I'm her gal-boyfriend. haha.

ANYWAY.

I went shopping today and got two pairs of jeans,
and a really, really cute purple bag, holy mannnn.

Alright, love you.

Suddenly you're calm and I'm
loving everything about you...

-->> So I've heard I've been being missed at xanga,
by a few lovely readers. =) Indeed myspace has taken
over my life along with many others. I still like to update
here though, and I actually have something to talk about.

If you havnt noticed, I update every 20 comments or so,
so keep this up, even though I suck at replying lately... I've
been occupied with other things, I've been tied to AIM, the
phone, and myspace ever since I havn't been single anymore.

Damn straight, this chica isn't single anymore.

-->> Finally, lets just say. Happened yesterday, (onesixteenzerosix.)
So you guys aren't too late to be informed. Hardly anyone really
knows anyway, so feel special. lol Lovely guitar playing boy who
I'm very fond of. lol ANYWAY.

I was in the hospital this morning.

-->> Yeah, for stomache pains. I went to the local doctor
earliar and they referred me over to get an ultra sound.
...Strangest thing I've ever done in my life. Despite the very
uncomfortable feeling of having to pee, EXTREMELY, while
having your stomache pushed on, (warning: do not try this
at home, or for any reason unless it is a doctor, because it
sucks. Just dont.) it wasn't that bad at all. Strange, but not
bad. Stupid... but still not bad.. COMPLETELY MESSED, but
not bad. haha. =)

Nothing goes on in my life, still.

-->> One of the most extreme reasons why I don't update
anymore- I have nothing entertaining to talk about, FUCK!
Haha, give me something- anything you'd like me to talk
about on here, and I'll do my best to apply my sarcasm skills
to your topic. Maybe I can make you laugh, maybe not. We'll see.

Until further notice,
-- Your lazy updater...

Sala